Thoughts on guilt
After posting, I realized this is post number 1200. Not bad. Some of these are brilliant, some inane. The brilliant ones I probably didn't write. I had a flash this morning that a lot of our guilt is self-inflicted and a result of self-absorption. I am experiencing caregiver guilt, and although I can tell myself it is irrational, that doesn't solve a problem. We can tell ourselves truths but it takes our emotions (and the bodily responses that go along with emotions) a long time to catch up with the truths. Guilt of this type comes from a belief that we can of ourselves relieve suffering and stop or slow down the dying process, which is not in our hands. It reminds us how limited we are, which is a good thing to be reminded of. In Beth Moore's study in James she writes, "we are supposed to need God." There is a lot to think about in those six words. Part of my problem, as with most of us, is innate belief I can handle it and that I am supposed to handle